As you may know, I am a stay at home mom. I honestly would not trade it for the world! I truly feel as though it is my calling in life. That might sound crazy or lame to some, but to me it's all I've ever wanted. Part of the reason why, is because that's how I grew up. My family struggled my whole childhood. My dad was a pastor of a church that couldn't pay and worked long hours all throughout the week just to make ends meet. My mom stayed home with me and my two younger brothers. I don't remember struggles at all. To this day I remember having the best childhood anyone could ask for! My parents never told us about the struggles, they just took us on hikes, picnics and bought A LOT of dollar store Christmas presents. ;) it was a GREAT childhood. I want that for my kids. I want to be the mom that's always there, regardless of the hardships.
I'm a stay at home mom, but I have to admit, sometimes I feel completely worthless. When we are running out of money at the end of the month I start to feel guilty. When my husband works a 16 hour day and all I did was read a couple books to my daughter, a load of laundry and caught up on my tv show from the night before, I feel useless. Sometimes I wish I could do something amazing with my life to make my husband super proud of me, like how I feel for him. He is studying to be in the medical field while working in the U.S. Army and raising a daughter. I am SO proud of him! Is he proud of me? I'm just staying home with our child.
Yes, the answer is YES! He is proud of me! He might not say it, but he is. Does he think that what I do is worthless? I may feel like he does, but that couldn't be farther from the truth. If you are a SAHM and have these feelings, they are normal but please don't feel as though you are worthless. You are giving your child something that they can carry with them for ever, great memories and bonding experiences. You have one of the most important jobs known to man. You are molding and making a future member of society. You are making them feel special, supported and loved. I don't know about you, but that is an amazing calling in life. One thing I try to remind myself is that at the end of my life I am not going to wish I had worked more. No way. I'm going to thank God that he gave me the opportunity to be home with my kids and watch them grow up every step of the way. I'm not going to wish I had made a name for myself. I am going to remember the times I took them to school and made it to every baseball game. Money may buy a lot of things, but it doesn't buy you memories. You are doing something amazing. Now don't get me wrong, I'm all for the working moms too. This is not a slam to you because I applaud you for working while raising kids. This is just for the moms who truly have a passion to stay home with their kids. It is more rewarding than you realize right now, and it is definitely, definitely NOT worthless. :)
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